In My Nest

Well, lately I have felt a little consumed with preparations for baby and Christmas, and haven't taken much time to write about the journey. I have to admit that it has not been a peaceful season for me. Ted and I had a long list of house projects we intended to complete before the baby's arrival, but the progress has been slow and cumbersome. My heart has been flooded with anxiety and discontent in thinking about the events that are yet to come. I felt convicted at church on Sunday when Nick Vujicic, a man born without arms or legs, came to speak at our church. He shared his story with passion and thankfulness, explaining that God had used his circumstances for a greater good. I realized that certainly if the man without arms and legs could find contentment, than I could find peace with my unfinished house. I knew that God would want me to "fix my eyes on things above, not on earthly things," but I was struggling to convince my heart of that.

My urge to nest kicked in FULL FORCE, and I'm realizing that I am one stubborn bird, but God has been very patient with me, and willing to remind me of His goodness in several different forms. Finley learned to say a prayer from one of her Boz videos, and she repeats it often: "thank you God...this great day, AMEN." At first, I thought it was really cute to see her fold her hands and say these sweet words to God. Then, it hit me that she was teaching me a very important lesson to "give thanks in all circumstances." It's difficult to maintain an ungrateful anxious heart when your toddler is voicing thanks to God all day long.

The real challenge occurred when I snuggled up with Fin to watch "The Very First Noel," a short video that creatively teaches kids the story of Jesus' birth. I thought about Mary, mounting a donkey at 9 months pregnancy, braving a long road trip, and finding out that she would deliver a child in a dirty stable made for animals. I wonder if she ever questioned God or felt nervous that He was not faithfully providing. It made me realize that God's call to Mary was not an easy one, but truly, His design in putting Mary and Joseph in a stable was incredibly brilliant. None of us have room to complain about the things God has not provided for us, or feel anxious about surviving without certain comforts. His message to the world is clear, we don't need anything to line up for us on earth; we are only in need of HIM.

Surprisingly, I feel very ready for Christmas and for this new little miracle to arrive. We haven't finished every project, but my heart is truly at peace. I can't begin to describe how thankful I am for the gifts in my life, and for the God who took on flesh for my sins. Have a Merry Christmas, and stay posted, as baby news is sure to come!